So I am Maciena
I am a horrible blogger.
But since tonight is the last night of 2010. I shall blog, because well I can.
So I am Maciena, here is my 2010 in review:
January- Started a new semester.
was upset with people, didn’t know how to deal with it.
was surprised that it was 2010. and was annoyed when ppl said twenty ten, cause it bugged me
just focused on surviving the month.
February – My birth month. Was turning 24. That was hurting my heart. I felt so old.
I still was holding in feeling that were threatening to expose everything.
Batcrazy was driving me crazy. I really wanted to stab her with my no. 2 pencil,
love exploring my creative side. frustrated with other.
Life was painful and stressful and I was failing in my classes and there was nothing i could do
March – was a blur.
batcrazy hated me, i returned the same feeling.
I felt like a failure, because i couldn’t balance school and life
my best friend has a birthday
I had these underlining emotions that were so close to the surface i felt that i could bust.
April- I was reaching my breaking point.
school was terrible.
life was hard.
things were crazy
I decided to cut all comms. because i couldn’t deal anymore
May — my breaking point was reached.
the semester ended.
I took off to mom’s as soon as i could.
I felt like i could breathe again
June-hiding at moms
cleaning my old room, while walking down memory lane
things were starting to come to head. and I couldn’t handle things anymore.
had too much to do, and taking a class online.
July– had a summer course
was in silence with those around me that called themselves my best friend-because they didn’t know why I was upset.
want to just breathe and back up
August- took an amazing first vacation with my husband and little girl and sister and her bf
had a month to chill relax
tried to clean and be ready for the up and coming semester
September Haylie turned 4.
School was in full swing.
Hubs and I had some good fights
Time moved way to quickly.
October — School was kicking my butt again, but in a tolerable fashion
time passed faster than before
November – school kicking my butt, and not in a good way
December — Can’t believe its the end of the year
wishing that time didn’t pass so quickly
happy for christmas, but not all the fam obligations that it implies.
Christmas ended up being terrible….family on the brink….crumbling at the seams….