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January Reflections

How Did the Month Go?


So now that we are one month down into the new year, I thought I’d take a moment to think about what I wanted thirty-one days ago, and today. I re-read my Happy New Year post.  At the start of the month, I was really excited about the new plans and ideas I had.  Truth is, I’m still pretty excited about it.  I was thrilled with the idea of starting these new lists and plans.   I felt that I had it in me to do the hard work needed to complete these plans.  A fact that I’ve proven to myself.

I have started and made progress on three of my projects.  My books,  my desk, and the clothing.  These are the things that I’ve gotten started.  Which is more than it sounds.   My desk was a nightmare, I could barely use the keyboard, let alone find anything.  So tackling that was hard.  Thankfully I was able to get a handle on that.  I just have to finish it.  The papers I have to go through is crazy.   I’m quite proud of those accomplishments.

Now there are things I am still not happy with.  Like I didn’t do one bit of exercise.  That was something I wanted to do.  But never started it. In fact, when it comes to my health, all I’ve done is take my medicine.  Which really isn’t good.  I need to get back on the track I was, granted it wasn’t the most healthy.  But, it was better than not.   And not, is what this month has been with my exercise, eating, and health habits.

The debt cutting, which is something I wrote about on my other blog post, and I have to say that I’ve been taking some great strides on that front.  I have a lot of plans to deal with the debt our family has.  It’s just going to be a matter of time when those are dealt with completely.  Thankfully, Phil gets bonuses and that will help pay some of the student loans down.  That makes me so happy.  I have a plan and I’m happy that I’m sticking to it.


Another plan for the past month was to read the bible daily.  This goal is discussed in a ton of detail on my Journey of Faith blog.  But I have to say here, I did read 31 passages, I did write 30 passages.  That is a huge feat for me.

My month has been filled with snow days, cleaning days, projects, daily cleaning,  going to church, running around doing errands and such.  I’m proud that I haven’t been lazy, that I’ve been able to have fun.  That I feel like as a person, I’m growing.  So that has been my month.


that is all.



Happy New Year 2018

New Beginnings


Whew, another new year.  Another set of new beginnings.  Another time of reset and start fresh. I am looking forward to this year. There are a lot of things on the horizon that seems really awesome.

Right now I’m still wrapped up in the excitement of new ideas, prospects, things to do.  It’s hard to not feel good.  It’s gonna take hard work to take the list and ideas and make them into reality.  But for the first time in a while, I feel like I have it in me to do the hard work.

That in itself is really exciting to me.

You might be wondering what is so exciting to me.  Well, one I have these goals and ambitions to learn more.  Just because I’m a college grad doesn’t mean that my learning should stop, and I miss learning.  I miss challenging myself to study.  I have set some goals for myself, like learning French and learning basics from my childhood.

I also have a goal of cutting debt out of my life.  There are things that just need to stop being so expensive.  There is no reason to spend so much money on things that just don’t matter.  So I will be finding ways to save money.  Learn to do more with less.   There is no reason that we are so quick to swipe the card.  I intend to do some yard sales to get rid of clutter, with the intent of all proceeds going to cut our debt.  Phil and I have been very loose with our spending habits.  It’s my goal to cut that.  It’s my goal to take more steps to pay off our debts.  Between credit cards and student loans, we are being strangled.  I intend to change that.  I just do.  While all of this is probably too much information, it’s just a goal that means so much to me.  This time next year I want to report that I have succeeded in getting cutting out all credit card debt.

The reason this means so much to me, is I want a new car.  My car is great.  Don’t get me wrong.  Great gas mileage.  It has been through a lot.  The only issue with my beloved car is that my family of five does not fit into it well.  Now when the hubby is at work, and one of the kids can sit up front it’s fine.  But when all three kids are in the back, it’s very bad.  Poor Haylie is tortured.  So if I can get out of all credit debt.  I could save and get a new car by this time next year.  It’s a long goal.  But I’m playing the long game with my money.


Other goals include getting my body to a point that I can withstand daily life.  Due to the health issues, I’ve been through I have every attention to give myself the resources to keep me healthy.  I don’t want to be super strength girl or anything.  Just healthy enough to be able to live a good life.  Yes. I want to lose weight.  I have a number in mind but the truth is I don’t care if I am a size two or twenty.  I just want to be able to run around with my kids.  Go on field trips and have a good time.  So there are reasons I need to get my body in order.

There are a bunch of other smaller goals that I’m excited about, but for tonight.  I’m going to leave it at this.  The year will be full of great things.  I’m excited to for this year.  Are you?


that is all.


Christmas 2017

Happy Holidays?

Was my Christmas season a good one?  Yes.  It was.  I have to say that I was full of nervous energy as it approached.  But I have to say that when it was all done and over I  was pleased with how it turned out.  

Phil and I were able to get most of the shopping done sooner than we normally do.  Phil wrapped most of the presents, which I have to say was a pleasant change of events.  Christmas Eve started at church, it was a Sunday after all.  Then I took a nap.  It was so nice to just relax and be chill.  Then per family tradition, we went to Justice house for the family celebration.  And while I had my fears about the evening it was nice.  All four kids were there, not all the grandchildren showed, but most of them.  Dinner was completed and the kids opened their presents.   They were quite thrilled especially since uncle Jason bought them the huge Nerf guns with the balls.  I’m pretty sure the kids could perform a mutiny and I’d surrender.  These Nerf guns are massive.   It’ll be a fun day when we have another Nerf war.  

Christmas Day we woke up to find what Santa brought.  The kiddos were quite happy when they saw their gifts.  I have to say Phil really made me happy.  He gave me some wonderful gifts. Including four new pop figures, two new books, two new movies, and two new CDs.  He does know me well.  And per family tradition, we then went to my mom’s where we had breakfast.    Yummy sausage links,  bacon, plain rolls, cinnamon rolls, orange rolls and many many cups of chocolate milk.    Then we went to Gma Knights and I had a good time talking with my cousins.  I think as adults we get along better than we ever did as kids.  Once we left there, we came home to play with our new toys.  Bedtime came and it was nice to just go to bed knowing that the day was good.  

So, all in all, I did have a happy holiday.  Thank God.  It was something I was praying over since years past have proven difficult.   While I know the season is officially over, Merry Christmas to all.



that is all.


December 2017

Where did the Time Go?

Well, it’s finally the last month of the year. By finally, I really mean, what are you kidding me, we just started this year. Where has my year gone? I feel like it was just five minutes ago I was thinking about my 2017 and all the things I hoped to accomplish. Now it’s December and I can’t help but wonder if my year was successful. Truthfully, if I measure the year based on my to-do lists, it’s I’ve most likely failed. However, I will measure the success of my year by the health and happiness of my children, then I’m going to call it all good.

You might want to know what I’ve been up to in the recent days. Truth is, I’m just your average mom who is doing the daily things a mom does. I clean, I cook, I wipe runny noses and poopy butts. I make plans and hear the distant laughter of kiddos who know that I’ll never keep those plans. I fold laundry to see the basket dumped. I wipe the dust then turn and see things flying through the room. It’s just life.

I’m also your average person, I watch TV and fangirl over things I love. Like I freaked over Avenger’s: Infinity War trailer. LIKE FREAKED! I am in love with This Is Us and many other TV Shows. That is why I blog about them. (Shameless plug to check out my blogs AOS Fans and The Television Watcher. ) I’m reading a book called Beautiful Creators. I’m bullet journaling. I’m making list. I’m being my normal crazy self.

I’m struggling though because I, unfortunately, fall prey to the societies ideas of the need to be perfect. I do not meet that category. I’m not perfect, in fact, I think I would classify myself as a hot mess. I don’t like it. But whomp there it is. I am late. I have a stain on my shirt 73% of the time. I don’t get make-up on my face. Though I do love pretty eyeshadow. My hair stays in a messy bun 98% of the time. If it’s down, it’s because I’ve showered and am waiting for it to air dry. My socks, they are mismatched. My purse had the most random thing in it. I swear I pulled a small dino out the other day and was just happy that there was no snot on it.

I am a mess. I’m not even hiding that fact anymore. I am also human, who has feelings. And in the last six months, things have really hurt me. Between having to endure the humiliation of having so-called family and fighting tooth and fighting everything tooth and nail. It’s been a heck of a battle. So I’m just done at pretending that life is this perfect thing. But here is my deal.  I’m not perfect, but I’m trying to live my life to please God and myself.  Everyone else is no longer on my list to please.  So stop trying to pressure me into being this cookie cutter shaped person.  Now, of course, my parents and hubby are excluded from the general they.  Them I’m still wanting to be happy with me.  But other people can shove off a bit.  I’m a hot mess. Take me as I am.  Or LEAVE ME.  I’m just saying.


I am gonna do me.  I’m gonna please God.  I’m going to polite and nice.  I’m going to be happy.  I’m going to be good.  Good to my kids.  I’m going take each day as a blessing and find the good in it.  In other words, I’m done with the drama.  I’m done with the wearing my emotions on my sleeve.


Wow, this blog took a turn I wasn’t expecting.  I wanted to just kind of be light and fluffy. Tell any and all readers that life is ongoing.  Time is passing so fast, I feel like I’m being left behind somedays.  My year is basically gone.  But I’m looking forward to the next one.



that is all.


Today’s Shenanigans

My First Hit and Run


Today hasn’t been my day.  I’m gonna start off by saying that.  It’s okay.  Tomorrow will be better.

I’ll next say: Randy, Lucas and I are okay.  It could have been so much worse, and it wasn’t.

And now, what happened:
After not having my card to pay for my Kroger purchases, I had gone home, grabbed what I needed, gotten Lucas off the bus and was headed back to Kroger.  I was at a red light at a three-way intersection.  A van** was behind me.  They were also at stopped at the red light.  Something caught my eye in my rear view mirror and I could tell this teen wasn’t paying attention.  Next thing I know, I’m being mashed into.  Now it wasn’t a love tap like he’d let off the brake; this was a full on hit.  My first thought is my children.  Both boys were in the car, fastened into their seats.  They are both fine.  My next move is to get out of the lane to deal with the accident information.  But as I’m moving into the E lane.  The boy is backing up, and taking off.  His tires are squealing, he jumps into the turning lane, runs the light (cutting off traffic) and turns into the side ride that the light is for.   Not only his he being reckless, he’s whipping about.  Almost sideswiped the traffic on the other road.  He does like the serpentine driving until he’s out of sight.   I call 911.  Tell the details and the dispatch officer lets me know I’m not the only one calling about him.


Luckily for me, Leslie (whose birthday is the same day as mine), was in the front of the stopped traffic and heard him hit me, then watched him flee.  She got the license plate number as well.  And then stays until the officer takes her statement.  She had more details than I did.  But I suppose that was normal since I was a bit in shock at the way it all happened. At the moment this kid is still at large.  It is my personal belief that he was drunk or high.  That he was fleeing because he didn’t want to face consequences.  I don’t know for sure, that is just what my gut is telling me.   I’m pretty peeved because we just got my car finished back in April from hitting the deer last November. I’m thankful that we are okay.  Especially after the horrific accidents that have happened in the last week alone.


This is a personal plea from me to you, and everyone.  Stop driving so recklessly.  Yesterday a family of five lost their lives.  A few days ago a small child was hurt and is still in critical condition.  If it wasn’t for God’s hand, and the protection I pray for every single day, that could have been my family today.  Yes, this was just a fender bender.  But it could have been something else.  I walked away today, but I might not have.  Accidents do happen, I get that, but many could be avoided.  Whatever that young man was doing, he shouldn’t have been doing behind the wheel.  It could have waited.  My life is more important than a text, Facebook update, or phone call.  My kid’s lives are more important than whatever high you were chasing.


Thank God we are okay.


Thank God I’ll be in my bed tonight.


Please God let them find the guy responsible.


Stop being so distracted when you drive.


I survived my first hit and run.  I really don’t want to experience another.


**Black, maybe Toyota minivan, with a white hood.  Three passengers, all young (maybe teens).  License plate 360 HXN (?-87% sure)  The van had a handicap plaque hanging from its rear view mirror.



I received word today, the driver was found.  Charged and released into the custody of his mother.  They do have insurance, so my worries about my car are now settled.  

I have to admit I was sure this was going to land on me, that they weren’t going to find him.  So when the officer called today, I was overjoyed.  The officer told me the driver was found, charged and if there was an issue with insurance to contact him and additional charges would be filed.  I am beyond thrilled God answered my prayer.  That this boy was found.  I hate that this young kid was charged with a hit and run, but what he did was wrong.  Leaving the scene was wrong.  It’s a hard lesson, but one he had to learn.

September is Just the Start


Of This Crazy Train

In my last blog post, I said, “My calendar really is already booked.  It’s very stressful.  I’m not even kidding. ” And I wasn’t kidding in any way shape or form.  September is halfway over.  But that just means that I’m getting into my busy season.  I halfway want to screenshot my calendar to show just how busy I am.  And my kids don’t even do sports.  I really don’t know how the mom’s whose babies are in sports do it.

Between Cub scouts, girl scouts, band, school, church and the random birthday parties we stay busy.  I have ten points on my to-do list every single day.  Now to not make myself sound all “oh woe is me” a lot of those to do list points is cleaning things, that I sometimes don’t do.  But should.  It’s a lot of things that just have to be done, no matter how un-fun it is.

I’m glad the birthday parties are over.  Though the backlash from the drama from them is far from over I fear.  But that is another post altogether, one I don’t think I have “in” me to make.  But from now until November, honestly not until January, do I have a free weekend.  Every weekend has something on the schedule that needs to be done.  A lot of it is FUN stuff.

We have the church play, birthday parties, girl scout events, bridal showers, trips to Orlando, weddings, parties, and those are just the things off the top of my mind.

So while I’m stressed about the business of our lives.  I’m excited to be doing and whatnot.  Not just sitting on my couch eating bonbons.  Though I’m good at that too.

for now.

that is all.













The End to Summer

Not Really, but Close to It.

August has started, so that means while it’s still warm, sunny and summer.  The school year is around the bend and that brings an end to summer. But that doesn’t mean the fun is ending.

I want to report how great summer has been.  But I can’t it’s been dramatic and hot.  Also exhausting.  I can’t remember a summer break that has been this exhausting.  I have a four-page google document cataloging the dramatic part of the summer. The fallout is still ongoing from it as well.  And yes I’m being vague.  I’m sorry about that.  But I really can’t make this blog post all about that.  But this summer is one I’m okay with it ending.

There has been some really good moment in it as well.  Traveling to Wilmington, NC to see my best friend marry the love of her life was one of those moments. Seeing her so happy was a joy.  Seeing my girl friends for the first time in WAY too long was equally amazing.

Hocking Hills trip was awesome.  That trip was rough.  Won’t lie, physically that was the hardest trip this summer. The hiking, canoeing, heat, and sleeping on a crappy air mattress.  It was beautiful and amazing.

Florida was hot and sticky.  The beach was wonderful. That’s all I have to say about that.

Leaving Florida took us to Chattanooga TN (because my parents are amazing; they helped me so much) and that was a fun trip.  My kids and I got to ride the incline and see some fun sites.  But the long trip was exhausting and it took about a week or so to even out back into a routine.  I swear I was so sick after that whole week of being so hot and sun burned.  Plus I threw my back out while in Pigeon Forge.  So it took a bit to recover from that.

Summer was overall good.  Got a ton of housework done.  Cleaned and cleaned and cleaned.   Not that it seems to matter, living in a house with five people means a perpetual state of mess.  There is always at least one room that needs something done in it.  But this is life, and I try really hard to not let it bother me.  I mean there is a constant nag at me like I need to have a PERFECT house.  But I also had fifteen minutes with my son this morning.  Sitting on the stoop, waiting for the bus, hearing about his day.  No amount of clean dishes is worth that.   I rather spend time with my kiddos then with my hands busy folding laundry.

Here lately, I’ve tried to include them with my housework.  But still.  Kiddos trump perfect house.  I’m trying to remind myself of that.

The school year has officially started now.  Things are thrown up in the air and I’m trying to make them all land in a way that doesn’t make anyone crazy.  So now onto the Fall (which doesn’t really start for a month, but whatever.) I really am looking forward to beautiful days.  But I’m also really concerned because the way it looks is that I won’t have a free moment until November.  Every weekend seems to be already booked.

My calendar really is already booked.  It’s very stressful.  I’m not even kidding.  But alas, this is life with three kids and very busy schedules.

So here is my final parting line with this blog.  I’m a busy girl.  I’m trying really hard to keep my head on straight.  Life is good.

I really would encourage everyone to make apologies when you are wrong. Be kind to others.  Do your best to be good.